What the fck is her problem?! What the fck?! My mother just told me that I'm the most dull and boring person she has ever met in her whole life and in the whole world and all those shit while I was 'enjoying' my oh-so-cold dinner just 15 minutes ago. What the fck. I mean does she even know me?! I wouldn't say that I'm the most active person you've ever met. But at least I don't act like the living dead that stares at you and never say anything and is boring. What the fck. I know we live under the same roof and she's my mother and she knows some of my favourite food and some stuff here and there. But that doesn't mean she knows me COMPLETELY. So fuck off. I'm so mad right now, I could wreck this whole house. There was once I was talking to Afdzal, he had some issues and I wanted to just comfort him, she thought we were a couple. And she told the maids about it. What the fuck is her problem?! He's just a friend! What the fuck. I was just talking to him and she said we had something. Fuck. I found out when both the maids asked me ada boyfriend x. And I was like x de. And then one of them said oh ye ke? Boyfriend bukan afdzal? And I was like WTF. WTF. WTF. WTF. WTF. WTF. WTF. I wanna break her neck so bad. The last time I had a boyfriend, she told the whole world about it. I mean SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH WOULD YA? Most of my aunts and uncles came up to me and said, don't have boyfriend now.. not good.. later affect your studies. And I was wtf man. Wtf. She checked all my messages, EVERY SINGLE ONE. So that's why I now delete my texts once I've read them. And each time I receive a text, she'll just keep asking from who? I'll just reply some girls name. Just so that she'll shut her fcking big mouth. And each time my aunt said I've gained some weight, she'll go all YOU ARE SO FAT. SO DAMN FAT. SO SO SO SO DAMN DAMN FAT. And she wouldn't even care how I feel or whatsoever. And there was once she said to be you are so damn stupid. The most stupid and idiotic bloody bastard I've ever met. I wish I never had gave birth to you. And she added, I would vomit blood if I ever see you again and die the very next day. WTF?! And there was once she kicked me out from the house just because I threw up on the floor, I was sick and the medicine was so horrible. She took out some of my clothes and threw them outside. And there was once she slapped right across the cheek. Like so many times actually. And there was once she threw my books out from the balcony and told me not be stupid and sweep roads when I grew up, There was once she canned me so hard, the marks were left on my hands and legs for so long. And it all started since I was in year 3. All these hatred and stuff. They are so stupid, I wish I can throw them all away, but how? And for you reader, if you wanna lecture me on how to appreciate my mother right now, just shut your mouth. I might hate you for life and never speak to you. Just imagine what if your mother did all that to you. They are many more, just that I don't wanna tell..