I turned around but you weren't there.

*sigh* Time flies.. Time flies too fast. And I can go back. And that sucks. 2009 was the year of... i don't know. I don't even know I'm talking about. I don't get myself no more. It isn't crap, yet I don't get what I'm talking about. It's like I'm typing out sentences and then later I say I don't get it either just to get out of something. Not that I want to, but it seems like my path is blurr. Like I feel so lost. So afraid. I might sound like a freaky weirdo and some of you might think I'm just plain crazy and have been thinking too much or I'm just weird or you just think I don't make sense and I'm wasting your time and I'm getting annoying and you get pissed. And then you're malas to layan me. I'm sorry if I'm such a burden to you. I know I just get so emotional at times and I'm not PMS-ing. It's just that everything single thing you say, everything that you do. All your simple acts, your movements, your reply, the way you talk, it affects me. It has been rough lately. Like nothing's going the right way. Like this is a row. I want to mend it but I just don't know how. I'm confused myself. I don't know how to feel. So, how am I supposed to tell you? I hope you'll wait.