It's the break down and it makes no sense.

Sometimes I feel like breaking down so bad,
I just wanna fall on the floor and weep my heart out.
Now all I can do is just stay sad.
I want to throw everything out,
Throw everything around,
Lets my feelings out,
With all these emotions mixed up.
I wouldn't call this a poem,
It's just the way I feel.
I've been thinking lately,
Thinking of how things will turn out if I told you my real thoughts.
What would you say?
What would you do?
Would you hate me?
Will you confess the same thing too?
Will you feel the guilt?
I do not know.
I'm so confused.
Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. I hate this point of life right now. So much. Face the ugly truth. Face the ugly yet beautiful world. I wonder what if I haven't been to SMK BKT JELUTONG. Where would I be right now? What would I be doing right now? What would I be right now?