Exam!

Oh Mi Gaahhhh! Exam next week la! I hate exams.. I doubt that I can get an 2As. Probably A for civic or something real easy. Like erm.. Nothing's easy. Right.. Anyway.. ARGHHH.. URGH.. IRGH... ORGH... ERGH... Grr.. Puuurrrr.. Sexay rawr. Okay, that doesn't make sense. Nothing makes sense! By the way, Nadiah's organizing this car wash fundraising thing for the PRS. And I'm in it! Though I'm not a PRS. But I volunteered anyway cause she's my friend. And Cikgu Din hasn't confirmed it with her yet. *sigh* And I miss ashleyh or ashlayh or assie or ash or ashleeeyy or something that sounds close to her name. I miss rachayll. El Rachalo. If that is how you spell it. God, I miss them all so much, including aud or audaray or au aud or something that sounds close to her name. I can't believe I actually layaned Qis-my-ass-tina. Thank you audrey and ashley and anyone else and everyone else that came up with such an AMAZING name. It's gorgeous and beautiful since she loves it when people calls her Qis. It sounds so bajet and it is mmg bajet. I hate that name. Qis.. Qis.. Qis.. Eee.. Brr.. Hey! That reminds me of that Coca-cola commercial.. Brrr. It's so... fascinating everyone 'brrr's after drinking coke. What will happen if Zaini Zain become famous at the age of 60?! *gasps* Omg! The horror starts! If she turns out to be famous.. She wouldn't teach us! Anymore! Yay! You know Puan Roziana was in such a good mood today and I didn't have my kain when I was in school cause it was at the tailor's and the tailor lost my mom's number and so she didn't call and my mom thought she didn't jahit and sedang mengamuk cause she didn't call and was complaining bout the pola and stuff and was complaining bout something else and she's kinda nice and so Roziana was a good mood and I wasn't roasted alive although I was upposed to cause I didn't bring the baju and pola and kerja kayu to school and she didn't yell but said takpe esok bawa, kalau tidak takde markah la and I was like heehee okayy.. *runs out of breath* My baju looks so... perfect.. to be done by me.. And it's so damn obvious. Anyway.. I have nothing else to blog or I'll just blog later or another day..

It's been like this.

I've been so emotionless today. It's like I don't know what and how to feel about everything. The sky is so gray. I need Ashley right here, beside me right now. I need her so badly. *sigh* I really need more energetic songs to listen to or I'll continue my day like this, moody and dull. I came here to make you dance tonight! I don't care about my guilty pleasure for you!

Name : Sandbra Yo
Age :Younger than your grandma.
Date of Birth : You've got to promise me an awesome expansive present first. :P
Obsessions : CHRIS KAMRADA, MAIKA MAILE. I'm amazed that God created such gorgeous creatures. Anyway my friends are way way way hotter than any of them. Love you guys so much.

I don't know what to post. I ran out of ideas and words. OH MY GOOOOD.. This sentence suddenly popped into my head. Gosh..

We just stood and looked at each other. He seemed mesmerized. I felt my face flush, and I was going to say something, until he put his hand on my cheek. His hand was rough, but gentle. His thumb stroked my cheek. He moved his hand to my shoulder and placed his other hand on my other shoulder. He pushed me up against the wall. His mouth on mine. He played around with my lips seductively. Looking for an entrance into my mouth. His tongue playfully traced my lips. I smiled and finally decided to give in. His soft tongue victoriously played around. I could feel his hand went from my back to my hair, twisting around. Curling it. I broke away from the kiss at stared into his black mysterious eyes. He brought his forehead to mine. His breath hot and seductive. My fingers were entangled in his hair. He pulled my lips to his again, full with passion. Everything was perfect. His hands on my waist. Alright I'm stopping here. Eek. Anyway this doesn't really mean anything. Mature eyes only please and please do not get the wrong picture. PEACE! LOVE MOTHER EARTH!

It's the break down and it makes no sense.

Sometimes I feel like breaking down so bad,
I just wanna fall on the floor and weep my heart out.
Now all I can do is just stay sad.
I want to throw everything out,
Throw everything around,
Lets my feelings out,
With all these emotions mixed up.
I wouldn't call this a poem,
It's just the way I feel.
I've been thinking lately,
Thinking of how things will turn out if I told you my real thoughts.
What would you say?
What would you do?
Would you hate me?
Will you confess the same thing too?
Will you feel the guilt?
I do not know.
I'm so confused.
Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. I hate this point of life right now. So much. Face the ugly truth. Face the ugly yet beautiful world. I wonder what if I haven't been to SMK BKT JELUTONG. Where would I be right now? What would I be doing right now? What would I be right now?

Anyway.. CHRIS KAMRADA IS SO HAWT.

You know I don't listen to pop charts anymore. I don't even listen to the radio anymore. I just suddenly stopped.. Like stopped. I'm listening to songs and bands I didn't even know exists. I used to be glued to the radio last time. Like, GLUED. I couldn't live without it and now I don't even bother about it. I guess it's due to the not my type songs on the radio. I hate Akon. I hate him. I hate his songs and voice and everything. Not offense, but I just hate him so much. Right Na Na Na is so annoying. And You're So Beautiful bites my ears. I used to LOVE Fly last time but now I just don't listen to it anymore. I started listening to Fly since I was 11? I loved it. I loved Prem and Jules. They were awesome. I hate the Pagi Show. I hate Ben, Nadia and Phat Fabes. They are so annoying. o_O

And oh yeah by the way.. Remember that effing piece of kain I bought for RM24 yesterday?? I asked Puan Rositah whether was it velvet cause it was so darn expansive and others were like only RM6.80, and she told me this.. "Yang ni bukan kain velvet la. Yang ni kain satin ni," I was like WTF?! I BOUGHT THE EFFING WRONG KAIN FOR RM24 AND IT'S UNREFUNABLE?! God. I wanna kill that salesgirl at the shop. And I just smiled and said okay to her and went out, cursing to myself to never ever step in that shop ever again.

I'm smitten..

Oh gosh. This song is so.... so.... ugh. It makes me feel so touched and ugh. This is the lyrics.

Darlin' by Between The Trees.

This call is meant to be brief
A simple hello ending with goodbye
Then you say hello
Now, I am melting
And now my goodbye
Becomes a goodnight
I don't mind if you don't mind
Please say you do not mind if this call
Goes on all night
Cause I have more to say
My afternoon was O.K.
My evening was fine but this night
I want it to be the best night
Of our lives

Sweet Darling
This is my confession to
The crimes of wanting you badly
And Darlin' if you're wondering
Here's your answer
Yes I like you
I don't love you
I can't love you
Yet

These calls are getting longer
And these nights go on
And on and on forever
I do believe I'm getting better
Knowing you
Hopefully all of you
Sitting watching movies
We both know I do not watch a bit of it
Cause I am much too busy
Leaving my hand close enough
So you'll hold it

Sweet Darling
This is my confession to
The crimes of wanting you badly
And Darlin' if you're wondering
Here's your answer
Yes I like you
I don't love you
I can't love you

And I can not stop thinking about you
I can not stop wondering
If you're constantly
Thinking about me
Don't close your eyes dear I'm still staring
I won't lie dear I'm still breathing
Even though your beauty is breath taking

Sweet Darling
This is my confession to
The crimes of wanting you badly
And Darlin' if you're wondering
Here's your answer
Yes I like you
I can't love you
I can't love you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vMXS71otX1g


It's so sweet. It makes me feel so touched. By the way, I baked brownies today. o_O And there's walnuts inside and I was bored while waiting for the oven to warm up so I added CEREAL! And it turned out really really sweet. Too sweet. The top, the crust or whatever you call it was kinda sticky and I didn't like it. But the walnuts were awesome. And I saw four kittens with their mother today. They were so damn damn cute and damn damn damn cute. I feel in love with them. I wanna bring them home but I know I can't cause my mom dislikes animals. She hates their poo. And so do I. But I still love them all the same.

After turning 14 resolutions.

1. Study harder and turn out smarter than before!
2. Probably lose some weight or something.
3. Blast the music louder. Haha.
4. Earn some money. I hope I can work part-time. Maybe I'll do odd jobs.
5. Be a better person. This is compulsory.
6. Take good care of all my relationships like friendship etc etc.
7. Enjoy more luxurious chocolates. This is so a must.
8. Cut down all my bad, bad karma. I have a lot due to all those little white lies that won't hurt fleas but myself.
9. Finish a book during the holidays.
10. Go somewhere. Take the time off.
11. Set my own goal, each month. This is very, very important.
12. Read more to improve grammar and vocabulary. They suck.
13. Relax my eyes. Before I go blind.
14. Run away from nagging, in a smarter and sneakier way.
15. Become more evil. Muahahahaha.
16. DO NOT FINISH MY CREDIT TOO FAST, TOO SOON.
17. Sing louder?
18. Spend more time with my friends, that's for sure.
19. Respect others.
20. Have more private times? I LOVE MY PRIVACY.
21. Write more crap. And try... TRY to improve handwriting though it's 100 times way way better than Arief's.
22. Do more Maths. It does your brain good.
23. Dislike manwhores. They are disgusting.
24. Set a healthy timetable and follow it. I hope I do..
25. Don't go online too often and too long. I'm always over the limit. And that is why my yellow Internet cable was gone.
26. Agree to disagree.
27. Love to love. Hate to hate.
28. Express emotions better. Or you're hard to read.
29. Buy a new headset cause mine is broken.
30. Get a new phone? My phone is kinda crazy and doesn't listen to me. So it's not that I want one, it's because I need one.
31. Get a life and stop butting into other people's life unnecessarily.
32. Drink more water so that I won't dehydrate and faint on the ground.
33. Start baking cookies, cakes and buns. I'm so curious about baking.
34. Practice cooking more often.
35. Don't love the computer, MOSTLY THE INTERNET, too much.
36. Don't burp so loud. o_O Oops.. That slipped.
37. Spend money wisely. Try me. *mischievous glint*
38. Get a boyfriend? *giggles* Nahh.. Not now. I've got my eyes glued on Maika Maile and Chris Kamrada. But they are 6 years older than I am and they are KEZILLION KEZIZILION MILES away from me.. *sigh*
39. Stop humiliating myself in public.
40. Be spontaneously daring. Daring... Rawr!
41. Write more crap so that I can read it in the future. And laugh at them.
42. Stop being jealous over Megan Fox's hot bod. STOP IT.
43. Stop daydreaming and jump back to reality.
44. Sleep earlier.
45. Stop wasting food.
46. Stop spending too much time on the phone.
47. TRY to stop prank calling. It's rude, yet funny.
48. Perfect my fried eggs. Make sure the yolk doesn't break and is in perfect shape. :O
49. Stop talking bad a.k.a. gossiping behind peoples' back. Like I even do that.
50. Do you know that this was actually meant to be private? o_O

Oh My God. I bought an effing 1 meter long kain velvet, purple, for an effing price of RM24. Whilst my friend bought hers for an effing RM6.80. Wth. Anyway, lets just forget about that. And my day was kinda okay.. Just okay.. Nothing to remember. By the way, I'd love to state my friend's name in my blog, since he wants it so badly. It's Arief. =) I have no inspiration to blog anymore for meantime.. Although I have this terrible itch to.. *ugghh* This itch is so irritating that it makes me work my brain just to think of what to post. Anyway, I found this vid on www.youtube.com quite sometime ago. It's Mr. Sexi's Pizza. It's funny. And that guy is gay, yet cute. o_O I'm not saying that gay guys are cute. But he, Fex, is funny.

*awkward silences*

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I'm feeling blue. o_O And it's all because of this song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KLIboc0PFT8


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You know what. I love to read. And I love to sing, in private and with friends. And I love to dance, in private and with friends. And I love laugh so hard, so hard that I get stomach crams and tears and the pain at the throat. Yeah.. There's nothing to say.. Though this urge is so annoying. I think I'll post something else later..

I WANT .. TO .. IMPACT THE WORLD .. BUT I CAN'T DO IT ALONE ..

I want to impact the world but I can't do it alone.
I want to create a better place for us and you have to help me out.
I want to write a beautiful song for the ones that are alone,
I want to shout a message out at the beach, but one is not enough.

I want to make this world a better place to stay,
I want to let all the children run free and sway.
I want to save those that need me,
I want to make them smile and feel happy.

I want to impact the world but I can't do it alone.
I want to save lives and correct mistakes.
I want to feed them with happy laughter and sweet cakes.
I want to see them dance and get up after each fall.

That's my mission,
To impact the world.
And you've got to help me out.

BUS-TED

My mom caught me blogging and chatting and humming to Hot Mess in erm.. bout 2.30 am yesterday morning. She's an early bird.. So you get what I mean. I couldn't sleep and I decided to start a blog. And so I didn't realise that she came out from the room and went to the toilet until the toilet door closed. And I was like OMFG. Sheet sheet sheet. Effing sheet man. So turned off the speaker and monitor and lean my schoolbag against the CPU to block the very bright green light that ALWAYS blow my cover. Then I picked up a book pretended to read. She came out and squint at me and then said NO MORE COMPUTER AHH.. And I was okay.. Then when she went back to the room, I switched off the computer and then my dad called. I was like huh? why is he calling at this time? So, I picked up the phone and he asked me what am I doing. I said I was reading. Then he asked are you on the computer? And I replied no, I already switched it off. And then he said okay, don't spend too long on the computer cause it's bad for your eyes and stuff. Then he hung up. Nagging and warnings all the way from Penang, people. And I knew it was my mom who called him, obviously. Then she came out and scolded me. And I quickly picked up my Sejarah book since it was right in front of me and tried studying. Well, at least I tried. And she kept glaring at me. So, I just studied a little and went to sleep and that was about 2.50 or so. I was planning to not sleep the whole night but blah happened. And I think my mom slept very little after I knocked out. The next morning I woke up and my mom just showered. She didn't say anything and went out. I was planning to blog but the yellow Internet cable was gone. I was like sheet. Okay, never mind. I knew she took it out. And so I just stared at the computer, with no Internet. Wth is a computer for when it has no Internet?! It's like me bringing an electric fan to the middle of the desert. How useless. Well, at least I could still listen to some songs but still it was so BORING. I called Ashley and she was online. And she was blogging something, I think, I forgot. Then we were like we have to study. It's important cause exam is near. And we just kept telling each other that. But we ended up chatting and I told her about the missing yellow cable. After we hung up, I started searching for it. Failed, I couldn't find it. And so I called Ashley and told her I couldn't find it. Then we started saying we are gonna study now and so we hung again. I wanted to study.. SO BAD. But, I ended up tying my school shoelaces. And eating and then playing SIMS. Gosh, I hated myself. Then Ashley called and she was asking what are you doing now? And I said eekk hehehehe. I'm playing Sims. And she was like WHAT?! YOU ARE PLAYING SIMS?! Oh God. I was like haha. And then she had to go back to studying and I went back to playing Sims and studying, at the same time. I didn't study for long and I was bored. So, I cleaned the standing fan. o_O I was bored, I had to get away from studying for awhile or I'll go crazy. So anyway my mom came back. And there were lots of awkward silences. And fast forward fast forward. My dad called! Bout 10.30pm or so. And he said I told your mother to fix back the cable and I was OMG.. HEHEHEHE. Okay.. And so this morning I found the yellow Internet cable on the table.. AND HERE I AM..

Eeek! Peeps!

I have seriously nothing to do, besides chatting. It's 1.15 am in the morning. I'd melt if the guy of my dreams sang this song for me:-

If I was a sailor
I'd sail the seven seas
To tell you "baby I don't want you to leave"
You see this world is such a sad place
And without your pretty face
I'm sure it's gonna wind up much worse

And I know that you'll see someday that I can't live without you
And I know what I say is true cause I'm still stuck on you girl

I'm in love from the first time I laid my eyes on you
A-shoo-do-do-do-do-do
There's nothing I can do
And I'm in love from the first time I laid my lips on yours
Now you're walking out my door
And there's nothing I can do

And if I could explore the world
I'd bring you along
We'd go from New York to Timbuktu
But truly I am set right here at Denny's
Drinking coffee and sharing a cigarette

And I know that you'll see someday that I can't live without you
And I know what I say is true cause I'm so stuck on you girl

I'm in love from the first time I laid my eyes on you
A-shoo-do-do-do-do-do
There's nothing I can do
And I'm in love from the first time I laid my lips on yours
Now you're walking out my door
And there's nothing I can do

I'm in love with you :)

Ain't it sweet? It's sweeter than any candy I have ever and can ever taste.. *melts*
Oh Mi Gahhh! Why doesn't There For Tomorrow know Malaysia?! Is Malaysia that unpopular is this big, wide world?! It's sad.. Gosh.. Maika Maile and Chris Kamrada.. *drools*

Guilty Pleasure - Cobra Starship.
And i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care about my guilty pleasure for you

and i don't even know
what kinda fool you're taking me for
so you've got some brand new clothes,
you never could afford before

oh brother spare us all
we don't care anymore
we just wanna get down on the floor
you sell yourself to make it
you can dish it, but can you really take it

you're never gonna get it with nothing
cause nothing's what you got in your head
so stop pretending

i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up

and i don't even read
what the papers gotta say about me
oh, no i can't believe
they take it so serious, seriously

i'm so bored, oh please don't talk anymore
shut your mouth and get down on the floor

so cynical
poor baby i can dish it cause i know how to take it

you're never gonna win em all
so fuck em if they can't take a joke
i'm just playing

i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up

and maybe someday i'll believe
(maybe someday i'll believe)
that we are all apart of some bigger plan
tonight i just don't give a damn
(so shut your mouth it's time to dance)
if the world is ending, I'm throwing the party

and i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up.

That reminds me.. I have loads of sejarah left to do.. Haih. It'll never end.. Not until I pass SPM. I love butter prawns. Oh My God. Here we go again.. I miss Ashley and Audrey and Rachel Actually, I miss the four of us. It seems like we're gone. Not gone, but gone.. We don't even rehat together anymore. I don't even see them everyday anymore. Haih. School has been kinda dull. It's like I'm dragging myself to school each day. And each day before I get up from bed, I try to come up with an excuse to not go to school. It isn't torture, neither is it pleasure. I don't know la..

Not Good Enough For Truth In Cliche - Escape The Fate.
Hurtful words,
From my enemies of the last five years,
What's it like to die alone?

And how does it feel when tears freeze,
When you cry?
The blood in your veins is twenty below.

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window,
Make sure you're still alive,
Just in time to kill you,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget

( I can't take this take anymore )
( I can't take this take anymore )
I cannot feel what you've done to me what you've done to me
( I can't take this take anymore )
( I can't take this take anymore )
What you've done to me

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window, ( window.)

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget..

I'm definitely bored.

I can't stop listening to this song.. Girlfriend - Bow Wow ft. Omarion. It's sweet. And also I got Ashley addicted to this song, Simple Enough - NeverShoutNever. It's nice too but I prefer:-

Situations - Escape The Fate.
Situations are irrelevant now
She loves the way that I tease
I love the way that she breathes

I touched her (ooh)
she touched my (ahhh)
it was the craziest thing.

I love the girls who hate to love because they're just like me
A certain girl she took my hand and ran it up her thigh
She licked her lips and pulled my hair, I fall in love for a night

She can't behave and I'm just a slave
don’t worry I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
Dying is your latest fashion.

The frustration it's a regular thing
I hate the ones who love to hate because they're just like me.
A certain girl she took her hand and put in my lap
"It's way too full", she said. once you have me you'll always come back.

She can't behave and I'm just a slave
Don’t worry, I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Darling, what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
Dying is your latest fashion.

I know you love to insist and all it takes is a kiss and you just
love to hate me.

You know you love all the lies so don’t act surprised that I just
love to hate you.

I kissed your lips you pulled my hair it was the craziest thing
I love the girls who love to hate. (Breathing)

(Whoa) Darling, what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
Dying is your latest fashion

Darling (Leave Me), what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me (Darling), go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
Dying is your favorite passion.

Gosh.. I love that song though it's already kinda old. My mom baked sausage buns.. o_O

It's the start..

Err.. Hi there! I used to dislike blogging and since I developed this thing for typing.. I might as well start one. Since ASHLEY'S blog is so tempting and nice, it just tempted me to start one. I love her so much.. And also Audrey, and Rachel. Anyway, welcome to mah blog and I have nothing else to say right now..