God. School's starting soon. And I have to pick up my report card. I'm sure I'll fail in most subjects like Maths, Science, BM, KH, GEO and definitely SEJARAH. Help. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say. Take my advice. I know this better than you do. Don't lie. Save your breath and all those time you're gonna take to think on what to say next and build up your bad karma. Trust me on this. What goes around comes around. You'll still regret in the end. And it's always like that. I've been through it. You'll manage to get away with it at first. But, you'll pay for what you've done in the end. Cause and effect. Gosh. 2009 was hell of a year. In just one year, I've failed so badly. I've failed myself, my friends and everything. It feels like I've gone around in a year period collecting and producing bad karma. And now I have to pay for my bad deeds.

I turned around but you weren't there.

*sigh* Time flies.. Time flies too fast. And I can go back. And that sucks. 2009 was the year of... i don't know. I don't even know I'm talking about. I don't get myself no more. It isn't crap, yet I don't get what I'm talking about. It's like I'm typing out sentences and then later I say I don't get it either just to get out of something. Not that I want to, but it seems like my path is blurr. Like I feel so lost. So afraid. I might sound like a freaky weirdo and some of you might think I'm just plain crazy and have been thinking too much or I'm just weird or you just think I don't make sense and I'm wasting your time and I'm getting annoying and you get pissed. And then you're malas to layan me. I'm sorry if I'm such a burden to you. I know I just get so emotional at times and I'm not PMS-ing. It's just that everything single thing you say, everything that you do. All your simple acts, your movements, your reply, the way you talk, it affects me. It has been rough lately. Like nothing's going the right way. Like this is a row. I want to mend it but I just don't know how. I'm confused myself. I don't know how to feel. So, how am I supposed to tell you? I hope you'll wait.

Ain't this so cute too??! *another elated face*

Ain't this so cute??!!! *elated face*

Hey hey you you!

Oh Mi Gah. I went for swhimang with Ashley and Shazza todayy.. Yay! We were sunbathing under the sun by the pool today. It was about 9 to 10 something in the morning. And the sun was HAWT. And we were baked. I think im going for swhimang again tomorrow. Hehe. I wanna push Shazza down. Mwahahaha. You know, no one reads my blog and I know that. But anyway this blog is just for my personal pleasure and obviously I'm exposing my privacy and yeah I do not like exposing my daily life basis on the internet. Kay.. Maybe not daily life. I haven't blog in such a long time. And I got addicted to this new song called Do Better by Say Anything. It's AWESOME. Lovin it, embracing it, feelin it. Ooh hair on Ashley's keyboard. I wonder whose hair is it. *wonders* Miracles happen everyday. O.o We're supposed to do maths and science homework but we're just too lazy. Lalala~ Maika Maile is so hot. He's like so hot. Like so so friggin hot. Haha.

Heyyyyy

Haven't been blogging for so so so so so so so so so *shall exagerate more* right how do you even spell that word... BY THE WAY I GREW DARKER! yay! swimming with shazza. i thought her how to dive and now she can dive. except her leg is most of the time terkangkang,

Like whoa.

God, my ex-classmate called to my house phone just now. And that, THAT surprised me. Cause I thought he might have forgotten me or something. But he called, TO THE HOUSE. It's so weird cause no one calls to the house anymore. Anyway,

Me: Hello?
Vethian: Hey Sandra. Remember me?
Me: *thinks hard* Umm... Err.. Lemme think.. *silences* Who are you?
Vethian: You cannot remember me?
Me: Who is this?
Vethian: Vethian.. Vethian.. Vethian.
Me: *in heart thinks, "OMG. VETHIAN. OMG," and is speechless*
Vethian: You cannot remember me?
Me: Repeat your name again.
Vethian: Vethian.
Me: Wow.. Omg.. Vethian.. Where did you get my number from?
Vethian: Err.. this thing.
Me: Biodata?
Vethian: Yeah biodata. 

convo starts and I forgot what was it. and suddenly..

Vethian: Ehh did Julianne go to school today?
Me: Err. I don't study in Acmar anymore.
Vethian: You don't? Why?
Me: Cause my mom doesn't like Acmar?
Vethian: I see. Where do you study now?
Me: SMK Bukit Jelutong.
Vethian: Bukit Jelutong? You live there?
Me: No I study there, not live there.
Vethian: I live there.
Me: WHAT? WHERE? WHICH JALAN?
Vethian: I don't know.
Me: You live there and you don't know.
Vethian: I'm not so good with the roads yet. Just moved in.
Me: Oh. Still, you live there and you don't even know which jalan.
Vethian: I've not moved in yet la. Just bought the house.
Me: *pulls this face, =.="* I see.
Vethian: Do you have Preveena's number?
Me: Yeah. *gives her number*
Vethian: Kay thanks.
Me: Sure.
Vethian: Kay I uhh.. *mumbles something that sounded like love or something* Bye
Me: Oh *is baffled* Bye.
Vethian: Nice talking to you again.



It's was something like that. And we talked for about 2 minutes 45 seconds or so.. And my mom baked cupcakes again. I purposely sprinkled and added more almonds into it! Yay! And ashley watched 2012 already.   T_T    And she said it was so awesome. And I'm so jealous. So jealous. I'm dying to go out with audrey ashley and rachel. SO BAD.... And I hate sejarah. I think I got 48%. And my Geo, AI don't even wanna think about it..